19th Birthday!

Today is my 19th birthday! I am so blessed. I get to spend today with my family and friends.

When people ask what I want for my birthday, I don't know what to say. You want to know what I really want right now?

I want something that no one here on earth can give. Only God can. I want people to be healed from diseases here, on earth. I want for Rebecca to be healed here and now. I want there to be no more cancer or Lyme Disease. Or any other disease.

But guess what? Everything that I want is promised in Heaven. I know that Rebecca and I will be healed, even if it isn't on this earth. I know that there will be no more cancer or Lyme Disease. There will be no more IVs, needles, medicines, ports, PICC lines, surgeries, pain, weakness, needs for wheelchairs, or hospitalizations. There will not be the need for anything. There will not be sickness.


"He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” Revelation 21:4


"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal" 2 Corinthians 4:16-18


"So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever." 2 Corinthians 4:18 (NLT)


We are also promised that through this life, no matter what, God carries us. 


"I have made you and I will carry you;
   I will sustain you and I will rescue you." Isaiah 46:4b


So as I'm learning more and more each day, 
"When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll
What ever my lot you have taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul"  



Even though I wish things were different on my 19th birthday, I will rejoice because we are promised that all this pain will be gone forever. Today I will rejoice because I get to spend today with family and friends. Today I will rejoice because through this all, we are not alone. Today I will rejoice because God has given me another day. Today I will rejoice because: 


"You say I am blessed because of this
So, I choose to believe
As I carry this cross, You'll carry me"


Oh how I can't wait for that day when everything is made right. The day when there is no more sickness and pain.


But today, "Even so, it is well with my soul".