" There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace."
Last night might have been one of the worst pushes I've had. The pushes are always stronger at the beginning of the week because they are made over the weekend.
I got the push around 5:30 last night and started reacting around 6. Usually it takes an hour to react. It started with pain all over and nausea. It's not a kind of pain that you can describe. It's deep inside of you. Then I had fever and horrible jaw and throat pain, along with the body pain and weakness. I couldn't talk for a couple hours because of the pain. The pain continued to get worse for a few hours, almost unbearable. Around 8, I started to shake and I was so cold. Usually the shaking and ice cold feeling comes first. But, you never know what kind of reaction you will get. All of this continued until around 11:30. I was then able to get off the couch and be up for a while. I took a shower and read. Just when I thought everything was getting better, I got a migraine. I finally could take some medicine because I had let the push go on for 6 hours. The medicine did nothing. My mom rubbed my head for a while and pressed on the pressure points for headaches. That helped some. I finally fell asleep around 2am. I woke up at 3:30 with the migraine again. I took more medicine, so that helped a little. I went back to bed at 4 and slept until 7. I woke up again with a headache. Thankfully, I fell back asleep and slept until 11. It was a very long, exhausting night.
I'm thankful that we could sleep in today and go to the clinic this afternoon. I think I'm going to get the lowest dose of the push today so that I can recover from last night. Thank you for all the prayers, I really appreciate it.