Tuesday, June 30, 2009

A time for everything.

" There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace."

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Last night might have been one of the worst pushes I've had. The pushes are always stronger at the beginning of the week because they are made over the weekend.

I got the push around 5:30 last night and started reacting around 6. Usually it takes an hour to react. It started with pain all over and nausea. It's not a kind of pain that you can describe. It's deep inside of you. Then I had fever and horrible jaw and throat pain, along with the body pain and weakness. I couldn't talk for a couple hours because of the pain. The pain continued to get worse for a few hours, almost unbearable. Around 8, I started to shake and I was so cold. Usually the shaking and ice cold feeling comes first. But, you never know what kind of reaction you will get. All of this continued until around 11:30. I was then able to get off the couch and be up for a while. I took a shower and read. Just when I thought everything was getting better, I got a migraine. I finally could take some medicine because I had let the push go on for 6 hours. The medicine did nothing. My mom rubbed my head for a while and pressed on the pressure points for headaches. That helped some. I finally fell asleep around 2am. I woke up at 3:30 with the migraine again. I took more medicine, so that helped a little. I went back to bed at 4 and slept until 7. I woke up again with a headache. Thankfully, I fell back asleep and slept until 11. It was a very long, exhausting night.

I'm thankful that we could sleep in today and go to the clinic this afternoon. I think I'm going to get the lowest dose of the push today so that I can recover from last night. Thank you for all the prayers, I really appreciate it.


  1. sweet sweet girl I'm so sorry your night was so hard. I'm praying for you daily! I love you so much!!

  2. You're a lot braver than me. So looking forward to seeing you Friday. See you soon, I love ya!